heart.
let's chase the summer and forget the world.
Thursday, April 26, 2007!
HandWritten on; 11:49 PM
hey people.
WE BROUGHT THE GOLD WITH HONOURS HOME.TODAY IS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE.
i never did feel so many emotions together at the same time till today. when clarice screamed, "GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!!!!!!" I SCREAMED LIKE MAD. I AM MAD. I AM MAD I AM MUSIC AND DANCE. we started to cry. i'm so touched. so touched by everything that has happened. everything that has made this happen. at that very special moment, i felt a very special bond. a m-a-d bond. it's something non-dancers can ever understand. we just wanted to scream it all out. WE WANTED TO TELL THE WHOLE SCHOOl, THE WHOLE HWACHONG, WE GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS. WE DID IT. WE SCREAMED OUR HEARTS OUT. MAD. MUSIC AND DANCE. MODERN. GOLD WITH HONOURS. GOLD WITH HONOURS. WE DID IT PEOPLE. WE BROUGHT IT HOME.
HWACHONG MAD MODERN DANCE. SYF 2007.
GOLD WITH HONOURS.
WE BROUGHT IT HOME.
there is this very void feeling in me now that syf's over. i want to do the dance again. it's amazing how we did it so many countless times since december and here am i, immersing myself in the music and i REALLY want to do it again. i know i will remember it and it will be the most memorable dance of my life:)
thankyou seniors. thankyou, for touching me so deeply with your words. with your belief and faith in us. for your trust. for your care. for all of your love. thankyou so much, for making me realise I WANT TO DO THIS DAMN BADLY. thankyou, for making all of these happen. i thank god for seniors. i thank god for batchmates, thank god for mr dan (i miss mr dan so much):) and i thank god for mad. <3
Wednesday, April 25, 2007!
HandWritten on; 12:20 AM
SYF IS TOMORROW!!!!!!
i know im supposed to go and sleep now. the seniors said rest well and sleep early:) i just finished writing the seniors' notes. anyway tomorrow is the big day. thanks to everyone who wished us all the best/good luck/jiayou/coming down to support! we will give it our all tmr. i am going to give it that extra stretch. i am going to put all of my energy to emo and to dance. i am not going to regret tomorrow. we are going to put up the best dance of our lives:) after friday, everything became so much clearer to us. now we all know WE WANT TO DO THIS. and we realised HOW MUCH we actually want to do this. and now we all know we are not alone in this. we have the whole group of dancers with us:) now mad feels like a family to me. love mr dan, love the seniors, love batchmates, love mad<33
i am going to sleep now:) go hwachong mad.!<3
Monday, April 23, 2007!
HandWritten on; 12:43 AM
reading the seniors' blogs made me cry. they seriously make so much sense. i was reading clarice's kelvin's and ruixiong's blogs. they said things which mean so much. i dont know what to think, it has been a long time since i was so "emotionally impacted". but i guess thats good. anything will beat that kind of slacky sloppish attitude towards dance we could have been having now if not for friday. friday was all about putting things back into place, back into where they should be in the first place. to remind all of us what we are doing here for. why we are practising. why do we even go for practices.
friday was good.thanks kelvin, liuqian, clarice, nicholas, meiling for what you said on friday which opened up both our eyes and our hearts. thanks ainan ruixiong samantha for always being such wonderful seniors. all of you are probably the greatest seniors one can ever have:)
quoting kelvin, "because to believe you can do it, is to reciprocate the faith that has been devoted to you." the seniors have so much belief and faith in us since the beginning of day one. but we were always too preoccupied and too blind to realise. friday opened up all of our eyes. and made us realise how much we want to do this. its about mad. it's for mad.
tmr and tuesday. then wednesday. wednesday. when it's all going to happen. nothing is going to matter as much. nothing NOTHING. my thoughts will be on syf every hour every minute every second. i feel so scared. but nothing is going to be as important to me as syf is. every second, im going to think dream sleep breathe
dance. yes, this dance is THAT important to me. hwachong modern syf 2007. journey. it has been such a memorable and wonderful journey. i dont want wednesday to come. i dont want anything to end. i do not deny that there were many times when i dreaded going for cca. but now, i dont mind going for syf practices day and night forever and ever. i just dont want syf to end. i dont want to hear the end of the music. i want it to last on and on and till forever.
i am very proud that i can say this: i love the seniors, i love my batchmates, and i love mad. mad is (mad)love<3.
i'm going to live for,what i know i need;
Friday, April 20, 2007!
HandWritten on; 11:41 PM
树叶黄了就要掉了
被风吹了找不到了
太阳累了就要睡了
留下月亮等着天亮
冬天来了觉得凉了
水不流了你也走了
音乐响了让我哭了
心亦丢了还回痛吗
啦啦啦啦啦....
还回痛吗
my mad seniors are fabulous people. all of what you guys said today really hit me. i really did not feel so much and cried like that for dance ever since leaving nymd. we have been training for so long, 6months? and how many times can we actually say we put in our best for the dance. in contrary, we have complained of this and that. while all of you all who are much busier with school and other commitments than us, have always ALWAYS tried your best and gave everything to the group. i dontknow about others, but i felt really .. ashamed? when it all hit me. like what sharon said, our nanyang juniors have improved so much. they too, gave their all to the dance and to the troupe. what about us as seniors. i haven been a good senior nor junior myself. i felt sooo guilty. it was liuqian's words which struck me the most. on wednesday, we are going to ucc. to put up a dance we practised for six whole months. we have come a long way. and on wednesday, we are going to give it our all. and with no regrets. the results wont matter anymore, so long as we have given it our heart and soul. however role we are playing in the dance, we will do it to our bestttest. WITH NO REGRETS. our aim is only to touch one person out of the audience. and when we really touched that one person, we have succeeded as a dancer. as a dancer. which means the world to us. what kelvin said just now reminded me of something. after syf, whats going to happen. this very group of people who trained together every week for six months? some people going to hiphop, some training with other ccas.. we will most probably never come together as a whole troupe, this whole syf team again. these people mean so much to me. when i think about this, i really dont want syf to end. how all of us struggled to survive every practise, jumps and leaps across the floor.. remember the first time we joined mad we were in the room above the poolside restaurant? remember how we all felt that time and how we felt that we couldnt catch mr dan's steps and his dance moves. then think about now, how we have all come together to perform a dance together. with different groups of people, the leads, the suitcase people, the guys and the umbrellas group. FOUR groups of people doing synchronised movements together and in the end, fit in together with the whole dance. the whole picture. our seniors really did so much for us. they are the ones who pulled the whole of mad together. i dont want them to step down and leave. but when that happens, i dont want our batch to be the ones who are going to pull down the troupe and like what nicholas said, to undo everything that our seniors did for us. our seniors really make alot of sense. i can still remember what each of them said. clarice said when they first wanted to work on syf, the seniors stood in the studio, eight of them together. there were only eight of them. so when we came, we were like God-sent to them. with us, they can do and perform a dance of our own. our very own modern dance syf. clarice said we were God-sent. we were the ones who gave them hope. they treasured us, their juniors so much. yet we didnt do them honour by letting them down. by demoralising the troupe. meiling said, when you say something is not good enough, this step doesnt look nice. what we are supposed to do is not to sit back and talk and comment. cause that's not going to change anything. what we should do, which we haven, is to CHANGE it. MAKE A CHANGE. since we said it was not good, MAKE IT BETTER. kelvin said, they are fighting for us. for mad. for the future generations of mad juniors to come. for us to get better basic stuff like dancing rooms, and for others to see us as important and significant people. see mad as an important troupe. for the school to believe in us and see how good mad is. and seniors, we are going to fight for you all too. we are going to believe in ourselves. cause this whole thing is not about us anymore, it's about the dance. the troupe. it's about mad. IT'S ABOUT MAD. it's about mr dan too, whose kindness and niceness to us have been taken for granted and taken advantage of by us for so many times. and it's about our seniors. who worked so hard to put mad together. who gave it all just for us. WE WONT LET YOU DOWN SENIORS. ALL OF YOU ALLLL ROCK SO MUCH. WE WILL WORK VERY VERY VERY HARD, EMOOOOOOO OUR VERY VERYY BESTTT. WE WILL JIAYOU. TOGETHER. WE LOVE MAD. <3
music and dance;
Thursday, April 19, 2007!
HandWritten on; 11:53 PM
NANYANG MODERN DANCE, YOU CAN DO IT. <3


estelle is so cute! haha:))






nicole! <3


nanyang is reallyreally pretty:)

haha hwachong pool. took these when crossing the bridge. it was raining so everything was misty and very nice:)
went back to nanyang again today. it was the last time we can go back before their syf on monday since we ourselves have practices everyday starting from tmr. THEIR DANCE IS REALLY GOOD. juniors! believe in yourselves alright, you guys have seriously improved alot alot since the first time we saw the dance in the march holidays. like what i said just now in the studio, everything is going to be very tiring and draining for the next four days. but treasure these four days cause we all know that after monday, when everything is over, you guys are going to miss it. miss going down to the studio everyday to practice and train for the dance, to perfect it as much as you can. you guys have put in so much effort, and im sure on monday, the audience can feel it as much as us, your seniors did watching you guys just now in the audi. so, monday is what you all have been gearing up for. 23april, one dance. and it will be over. but for that few minutes, make magic. remember your seniors love you guys ALOT. <3
on our side, we are going to train everyday starting from tmr. and tmr there is this syf open rehearsal at the audi after ct session. the seniors say it is to get others' opinions and more importantly, let us get a feel of the stage and a feel of performing. hope everything goes well tmr:) we have done this routine countless of times since we joined in last year novemeber? we went through dance camp together, the tiring trainings at salt centre, dirty and sweaty practices at the school hall.. just for this day. NEXT WEDNESDAY. 25april. im seriously starting to feel nervous and scared. but we will all our besttt. 25april, 7minutes, one dance. GO MAD. <3
take your passion,make it happen;
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HandWritten on; 11:15 PM
OUTDATED PHOTOS.








nydc at heeren. loves to my aunty uncle and my cousins:))
happy birthday to me;08april2007 :D i had a great fabulous four days of my birthday!:) gotten my wish of a as sweet seventeen. <3 thanks alot everyone:))
Tuesday, April 10, 2007!
HandWritten on; 11:30 PM
:) on good friday, i went out with dancers jiayi jiayuan meisiew and nymd juniors (!!) chit siyu liping in the morning/afternoon. didnt take any photos with the juniors, rah damn sad. but ITS OKAY I THINK WE ARE GOING DOWN TO NANYANG STUDIO ON THURS! :D
met yueyang wanteng bunny along with jiayuan and meisiew in the evening! :D we went thai express in paragon where zouzhao joined us. my lovely friends, being their usual (lovely) selves, treated me to dinner:) it feels good to be the birthday girl haha.

THAI EXPRESS! :)

my thai noodles with some name i cant remember:D

wanteng's crayfish with glass noodles!

bunny's foooood:)

jiayuan's laksa!:)

hahahah spastic yueyang as usual, why are we not surprised. :D
after that before we go, we sat at wisma starbucks and just talked hahah cause we got a free drink. :D yueyang wanted to bring us up to taka rooftop! but we ended up at the taka basement surrounded by food food food and didnt have time to go in the end. there WILL BE A NEXT TIME! :D


(:
happy birthday to me;06 april 2007:)
SATURDAY!
had dance in the morning, went kap for lunch and then to town with meisiew hahahaha that was our third time there consecutively we were like oh my god haha. then dinner! mommmmmy brought us all to pepper lunch for a SORT OF A CELEBRATION. :D i really seldom eat with my family nowadays, it was precious dinner time:)


my salmon pepper rice:) doesnt really look appetizing here but it's good! :D


my brother and i:)
happy birthday to me;07 april 2007:)
such wonderful days of celebrating my birthday! :D LOVE to 07s79, DANCEMATES<33, juniors! 403 classmates:):) and of course, family! much much love. <3 next post shall be about sunday! went out with uncle aunty and my cousins to town, the fourth consecutive day to town for me. haha for now i should go and sleep, get into the CHEM MOCK SPA MOOD (mock spa on thursday):):) nights everyone!. <3
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HandWritten on; 11:08 PM
hello! i have alot alot alot of photos to upload but i dont have the time! okay i'll start by posting those on my birthday itself cause stupid me forgot to post them along with my birthday post:) haha. here goes! :D


hahahahah this is um, a "part" of munyee's present to me! haha. :D

make a wish!:)

blow out the candles and may my wish come true:)


this is the peanut butter french toast with CONDENSED MILK. looks heavenly right but kind of screams calories hahahah but we still polished it up in the end:)


and this is the ice cream version! :D


and YES WE POLISHED ALL OF THEM UP:)

meisiew and huitian!:)

<3 all of them!
happy birthday to me;05 april 2007:)
Sunday, April 08, 2007!
HandWritten on; 1:35 AM
oh man the previous post is seriously too messy to be edited again. rawr i know hahaha the photos are kind of damn screwed but its okay la i dont know what else to do with them already. haha im kind of a computer idiot. anyway i just want to thank those people who wished me happy birthday!:)
through sms!
munyee cheryl chang clement lijing huitian eugenia suhui wanteng yuanchang huitian kangjie jiayi siyu liping ruishan jessamin huijun chit zouzhao shihui siying carin yueyang stephanie jiayee vinette nicole kerri qianying shirui yuwei yunyi xianyun shermin ziyin marianne tisiana szekhee yunning yijing eunice!
in school:)
07S79, yueyang jiayuan wanteng charmaine shermaine peizhi bunny sharon cheryl chang tingyu beiyu, mianrong delphine boxian dingfang jamie lihao junyu yize ian changj jinxiang vivian kuan tania edna xiner jiayun hahahahhahahaha and people who dont know me like xuanyi and loads of other people, i cant think straight now. THANKS A WHOLE LOT PEOPLE:))
update again soon:) dontknow how am i going to do all my work when im going to like go out for the whole day again tmr. @#$%^&* okay thanks alot people and goodnight!! :D
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HandWritten on; 12:01 AM
THANKS TO EVERYONE FOR MY VERY SPECIAL AND SWEET 17TH BIRTHDAY! <3
okay when i got to school... haha the wonderful four oh three darlings!
wanteng jiayuan yueyang cheryl tingyu charmaine huiping for the BALLOONS!



then cause it was aa walking around school with ten balloons, eileen helped me tie it to the ceiling above our class bench like the above haha it was so cute laa:) then the wind blew all my balloons away): damn sad. i felt so guity and kept thinking of the balloons throughout the damn chem tutorial): my balloons):
thanks munyee for her present! :D
thanks shuhwee mianrong jamie charis for their AHEM, PENCIL :D :D

the pencil is not here, but its a VERY VERY SPECIAL PENCIL:) haha thank you guys!
thanks vanessa for her self drawn birthday cake to me in her gc! haha so pro right! :D
THANKS 07S79 FOR THE BIRTHDAY CAKE! it was quite a surprise, and i seriously didnt expect it. thanks so much. :D such a pity dont have photos, will post them if i ever get hold of them:)
okay then after school i met the dancers!! at kap our usual birthday place:)) although i kind of know everything cause quoting jiayi, its like a "modern dance birthday tradition" hahaha we always do the same thing:) but it still rocks cause of the people <3




sharon and jiayi tried smearing the cake cream onto my face hahahaha actually only jiayi kind of succeeded cause apparently hahaha sharon was too slow:):):) hahaha it was so funny:) after that we went town for my present and huitian joined us!

we walked around, got my presents (which are very expensive im so sorry people):) then sat at crystal jade and talked!



i seriously had a very very memorable and wonderful birthday, with my sec four classmates, with my current classmates and my beloved dancemates! i feel so lucky to have all of them:) and to you guys out there, thankyou so much for making all of it happen. for making me feel so special on my birthday! i am seventeen! and thanks all for willing to give up one day to spend and celebrate it with me. i love all of you. <3
photos of yesterday and today another day. tired of uploading. anyway i have been to town everyday since my birthday on thursday. and im going there again tmr with my cousins! haha oh my. :) yay i had a fabulous seventeen, spending your birthday with people you love feels great:) once again thanks everyone for making the memory last. <3 align="right">
happy birthday to me;
Monday, April 02, 2007!
HandWritten on; 10:51 PM
hello:) the past few days have all been passing by in a blurry. not sure what i have been doing, just trying to study for the many many many tests coming up. all the work is driving my crazy. not even in nanyang have i felt this kind of stress before. haha i finally truly understood the meaning of too many things to do, too little time. oh well but we are all hanging on arent we!! :)
ok these days there is council campaign. so... it means. alot of free food free drinks free sweets hahahaha free breakfasts:):) all trying to bribe us. haha but it is fun! tmr is council elections already, after that got no more such entitlements. haha. oh well jiayou to all running for council!! :D hc council is really different from ny. compared to ny its so so much more fun. no more prefectorial duties, just planning of events and activities which make the whole school high. :)) YAY THREE HOURS OFF FOR COUNCIL ELECTIONS TMR OH MAN. :D AND GOOD FRIDAY ON FRIDAY MAKES US HIGH. HAHA. :))
anyway im like bottoming my class for every quiz/test whatever random stuff. im such a loser!! rah i must learn to mug. somehow in hc everything i study cant seem to get into my head. anyway these days i was thinking about the start of school and remember that time i kept talking about positive thinking and i was really happy:)) but now. all that is gone i cant find that passion that enjoyment in things i do anymore. even the slightest thing make me tired. sigh. just today i had this renewed energy:)) i didnt fall asleep in any lessons today! a super big accomplishment for me. haha. ok hope this will continue:))
okay now photos again! haha its fun to take photos but damn irritating to upload them onto the computer, then to photobucket and THEN to blogger again. oh my god okay.
photos from syf rehearsal at UCC last thursday! :D




ahh hahahahha jiayi sharon and i were like snapping away:))

DO YOU SEE SHARON SPINNING IN THE BACKGROUND DO YOU DO YOU!! OH MY GOD SHE IS SO FUNNY SHARON ROCKS! :D


haha i look like an idiot holding the camera like that while helen poses prettily:)

group photo!!
anyway this is our senior while on the bus to UCC. hahahahha he applied the makeup all by himself and he looked both damn scary and damn amusing at the same time:)) HAHA we didnt know to be scared or to laugh. hahahahahaha damn funny.


looking scary!
ooooohkay haha and here are two photos of huitian and litang when we were all stoning at huitian's class bench on saturday. poor huitian was feeling emo! hope you are better! smile huitian! :)


in the aresgizers (one of the ares council groups) props:) haha after that we heard footsteps so they felt so embarrassed and hurry took the props off:)

oh i took this random photo while waiting for the bus. do you see the moon do you see the moon. it's really very round and bright today:) nice:)
anyway i miss wanteng wanteng wanteng and anyi anyi anyi bunny bunny bunny alotttttttt. ): and yueyang and charmaine and everyone. sigh! haha always treasure the times when we can all sit down at class bench after school and just talk on and on and on:))
okay one night when i can finally sleep early! although its not very early now, but... you get my point:) nights everyone<3
hypnotized;